The Meaning of Letting Go
After 6 Months of anguish, disappointment, despairs, jealousy, short-lived happiness, frustration, uncertainty, rashness, it finally dawned on me 1 fine night when I can’t sleep in my bunk the meaning of letting go. Everyone told me to let go, everyone said forget about it everyone said go search for a new tree the forest is so damn big but I still hang on. There is always this illusion, there is always this small hope things will change, things will become better. I still don’t get it when the main performer said: The performance has end please go home.”It was during that night something jolted in my brain. Something clicked and it all makes sense finally. My understanding of Letting Go means: “yes we are friend and keep it that way and nothing else.. Full Stop Finished Kaput.” I guessed my mind was so smitten with her in the past I lost all rational to understand the true meaning of the word “Letting Go”. Somehow I still can’t get the hang of living as a single by myself but November Oscar I will not purposely look for a girl just to accompany me during weekends. That’s too selfish too much a fcuking jerk) As I look around me the majority of fellow bunkmates which are still single ( It’s is not surprising because we are serving the nation…) I figure if they don’t let the issue bother them at all, I can do the same. hey we are human also and we do talk about relationship OK. It’s a matter of putting things into perspective. I decided to stop wallowing myself in self pity and take it like man. To do that, I started with some basic steps: removing things which don’t need my attention and don’t belong to me anymore. Dump all excesses baggage out of the window instead of carrying them around with me. If Someday our paths cross, I hope you be able to remember the goods times we once shared, not the ugly and immature things I've done.
End of Story, right now I have to go find more things to dump..haha
posted by Immortali @ 2:25 pm
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