Why Are You Here?

Feeling Frustrated

Lots of things to wirte about lots of things to do but as usual there is always not enough time or should I rather say there is only so much time?

Want to post pictures on my blog, the program “picassa” was down. Want to post picture to my hp, IE was down so can’t launch the program. Want to post song to my ipod shuffle, installer cock up. And so I spent my whole afternoon troubleshooting this and that, time began running up and soon I found myself preparing to book in.

Hmm I wanted to do so much and now I can’t complete in time and it left me very very frustrated argggg!!!!

Well this coming week i will be going to Sembawang camp for my chemical defence lesson. I did it before and how I must do it again..sianz. Then on Thursday I will be going to NTU for our section live-firing. I did it before and I have to do it again. But this is different because going to NTU bring great joy to me! (Though the mosquitoes over there is really a bother) But at the end of the day, there is nothing much because we will not be entering the buildings at all.

I liked being in control, to know that everything went smoothly but sometimes when I am tired I will purposely lose control of the situation and let chaos ensue. This may sound weird because at the end of the day it is still me who has to clean up the mess. I realized Life is boring if everything is a routine. We should have events that are unexpected to happen occasionally to jolt us up from our senses in case we become too complacent.

Strangley these few weeks, the image of her appearing in my sleep started to become more and more consistent and dammit it is starting to disturb my sleeping pattern. What Is Happening To Me? And I am not too happy about it at all..

posted by Immortali @ 6:19 pm