Why Are You Here?

Wait; Wait and More Waiting

I don’t know what has happened recently but I seemed to be disillusion about everything I am currently doing. This in turn affects my temper which I noticed has been getting more volatile of late. At times when I am doing duty standing at the gate, I wait for the time to pass by; I wait for the next person to replace me; I wait for the next day to arrive so I can dismount; I wait till I’m sick and tired of waiting and ask myself why am I doing this.

Why am I waiting for the 1% chance of terrorists attacking while 99% of the time nothing will happen?

The more I think of it, the angrier I became. And therefore I always channel this anger into motivation to push myself hard during physical training. In a way, it allows me to vent my frustration instead of storing it up and consume my entire body.

And while doing duty is not enough, we had a whole list of endless prickly situations starring at us everyday. Just when can we finally thrash out the solutions for the same old problems ever since the age of time?

I need a source of motivation to carry on doing the stuffs I am doing which include keeping vigilance at all times and be prepared to fcuk all those people who attempt to do anything funny to our base upside down left and right.

Hear me rant, hear me grumble but come tomorrow the cycle is going to repeat again. There is no escape. 11 more months of monotonous cycle and I’m out of that place.

Happy Waiting…Everyone.

posted by Immortali @ 10:43 pm