Why Are You Here?

I'm Feeling Old...

Feel I'm getting old...before my time.

A few days ago, I received a letter from NTU informing me of a place reserved for me for academic year 06/07 as well as arranging a date for a mandatory medical checkup.

And so the first thing it hits me when I tear open the letter is the fact I am going to write another new chapter in my life soon in another 8 months time.

Honestly, I’m a little worried about how am I going to fit into the university lifestyle if the plan of staying in a hostel with my 3 other brudders really did materialize. Because I can’t really foresee myself partaking in those orientation games/hall bash as such. I can’t really pinpoint the exact reason for the above statement. But I do know I’m very unlikely to enjoy myself in the orientation activities after viewing those short video clip edited by Sy on her hall activities. Please don’t get me wrong. They are actually quite well organized and I could see a lot of efforts being put in for the event to be held successfully.

The only reason I could think of is because I have been exposed too long in a no-nonsense approach during my 16 months and still counting stay in the SAF. I can’t say I’ve mature a great deal. It’s up to others to judge. But I am very sure of myself to be very serious and professional when dealing with serious work. And perhaps because of this, I often feel I’m very old even though I’m only 21.

Is it a good or bad thing? You be the judge and tell me.

I’ve been pondering on a personal issue for a few days. Something I feel like doing certain things based on my feelings so I will not live to regret in future. On the other hand, I would sit down and think of the consequences if I did things my own way without any consideration. Is the amount of backlash (if there is any) worth the initial effort?

P/s: going off for this week Monday, Tuesday, Friday, Saturday (hopefully) and Sunday. If there are any interesting activities worth sharing, please contact me along. A Thousand Thanks.

posted by Immortali @ 12:26 am