Why Are You Here?

the first thing I was really concerned when I was back in Changi airport was...

where is my backpack?

I figured I couldn't the so suay to be the one whose backpack got lost along the way from Brisbane but anyway I'm covered by insurance but it is a hassle still to try to make claims for that.

Luckily, a man walked back to the conveyor belt and apologies profusely to me for taking the wrong backpack and I breathe a sigh of relief.

The next thing that hit me was the humidity. Once I stepped out of the glass enclosed area, my sweat pore went into overdrive and my whole body feel pricky but still I did not sweat.

This morning, I woke up and went to the toilet. Much to my dismay, the toilet is not the same as the one I've been using for the 13 days in Brisbane. I still prefer the latter one thou. It is newer and somehow it make me feel better.


Then something seems to be lacking. I suddenly feel alone without the sight of Marcus and Siew Ying coming out of the bathroom ( separately of course for goodness sake!) smelling minty fresh from their morning bath and having breakfast together...even thou prior to the trip back I always thought how nice if I can be alone just for a moment away from both of them.

Yes, I'm not ashamed to say that I still miss them dearly so, even as we just went our own way for less than 24 hours. I am the sentimental kind mah~ haha

I'm glad I went for this trip. Amid the down, there is too many Up moments and experiences I gained during the trip.


I think the very practical & cynical me is starting to believe a little much more in true love and the possibility how it can affect us in many ways amid the highly materialistic society that we are living in right now. I am very happy for my fren Mei...as mentioned in my previous post so I will not touch on the same stuffs.

I place more importance in family ties and kinship,after witnessing for myself the strong bond between my fren husband Jon and his brother Jo on the night of wedding dinner.It was truly a very touching moment which I have not encountered for a very long time.But sad to say good to know, I didn't really miss my family when I was overseas for 18 days. I have always been the more independent kind so I'm afraid I have to answer 'No' when my mom asked whether did I miss her ..

I also think I understand a little more about my friends - Marcus and Siew Ying. I saw something among each individuals during the entire trip which I did not notice during our times in polytechnic so it complement the theory that 'people change as time passes by'

Through numerous chit-chat sessions and causal conversations in Aussie , I believe I gained valuable insight in each of them and I wondered to myself as well if they did notice anything different about me currently compared to 2 years ago? Did I change for the better or worse? Did I mature compared to the past or still as kiddish or cute as before? ( yup you got tat rite because this is what my fren describe me as of all words- CUTE!) I will find some time to ask them about that.

I also learn again how it feel like to be watching over and taking care of another person again after being single for so long...not that the person need much to take care of in the first place.But still, it was everything about Me, Alone and Myself for 2 years. Though initially it take some time to get use to but along the way, I learned and observed the quirks and habits and tried to act 'sensibly' as I could within the best of my ability so I think I still did pretty alrite~

Fortunately/Unfortunately (delete whereas applicable) nothing came out of it at the end so there is no happy nor there is any sad ending which pretty much suits everyone as well.

I also made some friends along the trips. Thru Marcus initiatives, we chit-chat with a couple of working professionals on the wedding day itself and gained valuable insight into the working culture of Aussie. I respected the professionals that we spoke to- accountant, doctors, financial analyst etc. Even though they were only older than us by a couple of years and upon learning that Marcus and me are still pathetic students trying to get our degrees, they were still very friendly towards us and readily provide valuable advices which I listened to intently. It also spur me on to be as successful, if not more than them one day and I will strive my hardest to reach it. I particularly like Aussie working culture and hope to work there in future if I have the chance to do so.

posted by Immortali @ 11:55 pm