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That day of the Year again...

It seems that Singapore is being swarmed with the mood for love for Valentine day will be descending on this coming Tuesday.

It was once upon a time when I felt Valentine day is suppose to mean roses, expensive dinner followed by a romantic walk by the beach under the starry starry night enjoying the sea breeze caressing across both you and your lover faces, holding hands, whispering sweet nothing to each other ears and follow by some thick action among the bushes. Ok fine, the last action is actually optional to some, depending on situation of course.

But then that was the past.

Last Valentine, we were kindly given night out and together with my course buddies, we went to have dinner. Even though the company was all guys, we had great fun.

This year, I’ll be going home straight after I dismount from my duty to sleep instead.

Being single for the past 2 years and still counting, I have witness myself and wondered the hypes surrounding Valentine Day, especially it is so commercialized and every restaurants and flower-sellers seem hell on to cheat your hard earn money just because it is Valentine Day.

This is not a case of sour grapes. Seriously, it takes a lot of fate, luck and the right combination for 2 person to gel together as one couple and it certainty don’t take a single day out of the rest of 364 days to tell that special one how much you love and treasure him/her. That is what I am trying to say if you don’t understand what the hell I am trying to convey till now.

Till now, I still don’t believe in handling relationship issue while still serving NS because I felt it will become a hindrance and liability in a long run. Perhaps I still lack trust in and most probably it’s the case of me shrinking back in my own shell instead of socializing more often.

But when I wish to someone to share my inner thoughts, joy, happiness ( very seldom ) sadness or such, that’s when the inner pangs hits me hard because I realize there is no other half that is special enough to do so.

Though often sooner or later, as time pass by, that sort of feeling become numb, I’ll get use to it and often the best remedy to counter is sleep.

An advance Happy Valentine day to all because I’ll be in camp tomorrow.

Btw, I am looking for a non camera hand phone because mine gone bonkers so if you have one that is still working and wish to sell it, contact me please. Thousand thanks.

posted by Immortali @ 3:28 pm