of course, Engineering is never a smooth sailing courses to start with. It is difficult and more often or not depend on a certain level of intelligence regardless of the amount of effort being put in.
I do not know whether it is correct/incorrect to say that but I really do not wish to spend the prime of my youth mugging and striving for something which firstly- I have no interest in and secondly- required tons and tons of efforts without even seeing any marginal rewards.
most often or not I am quite affected by remarks commenting I ๅ้่่ดน which is not exactly false in the first place but honestly I have a choice of giving up now instead without subjecting myself to the stress and anxiety of the incoming exams. Still I choose to sit for the exam even though I know it is unlikely to make any difference to my decision because I still believe in closing the chapter.
And of course it sadden me to leave behind frens ( beside my buddies ) made along the way in NTU and more often their response was to urge me to stay on when I announced my decision.
Again I have nobody to blame but myself for not thinking carefully about my choice made 2 years ago.
I do hope I can come back again studying courses of my choices and joining back my familiar grps of frens but chances are very slim.
my future may seems as dark and dull like a charcoal but I will put in effort to at least make it shine instead of becoming ashes.
serious stuff aside, I met up with tok, xj, zh and gary again because it is XJ 21st bdae. the birthday celebration was not bad, manage to meet up again with tok after his ORD, manage to see a babe who is really captivating and most importantly we manage to get together to take a photos with my civilian status.
happy 21st birthday xj. wishing you happiness and success in life and love as well.
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