But staying at home is such a headache because my momma always nag. She nag at me why I cannot learn from my cousin. She nag at me why I don't want to go clean the windows. She nag at me why I cannot help her with my housework. In fact she basically nag at me for the sake of nagging. Once my sister wondered to me why in our mother eyes we are always worse than our cousin and I took a moment to think about it. Basically we are Ok so it is decide that it is really our mother that is so hard to please. I wished things can improve. I tried putting in effort but sometimes we have this clash of ideas. She prefer slow and steady, simple and safe lifestyle. But try asking that from someone who is still young, ready to go and see the world to hold back and enjoy the kampung lifestyle..slow and steady, simple and safe and you get what I mean? The world she lived in 20 years back and the world I am going to face 10 years later is definitely going to be different with globalisation and such but she don't understand when I told her she will be dead meat if she is in her 30 right now and blamed me for looking down on her generation.
Therefore sometimes I don't know whether to laugh or cry, to rebut back or keep silent, to stay at home or go out instead to escape from her nagging. I understand my parents are going on in years and I also want to do my part to take care of them but when you are often chatised for every little thing you do, the relationship take a step back and sometimes you cannot blame the children from distancing away because I am so sick and tired of "this one cannot that one cannot"
Therefore maybe it is a good idea to engage myself in work more often or go back earn the OT. I am also looking to take part in some cooking courses at the CC near my house. Be it for personal interest or to get to know more people, it is definitely better than staying at home kena nag like there is no tomorrow.
posted by Immortali @ 11:27 pm
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