Randomly + Random Thoughts
Oh gosh...for the first time since school reopen, I have not touch any books for the entire day and I must say I find the feeling a little bit...WEIRD. Yes, the word over here is weird; not "
exalitrating". (
I spell the word wrongly but I'm too lazy to check the dictionary)
Spending an afternoon lazing around, playing games or going out to town for a walk seems like a long distance memory and I couldn't resist all these in exchange for an afternoon nap yesterday indeed.
School is a struggle..as usual. Afterall who doesn't struggle in engineering unless you are some kinda of wizard blessed with smart thinking caps. At times, I have the idea of breaking myself out from the norm away from studying and particpated in CCA or other stuffs etc but coudn't find myself to do so for it would mean less time available to catch up with the lecturers. Of course, I understand this is still my 1st sem therefore I will need to put in extra 200% effort to make up for everything.
I hoped situation will change for the better next year.
The worst nightmare for me would be the look of bewilderment when people asked me what I did during my undergraduate days ( that is if I managed to get the degree) and my answer for them would be:" nothing but mugging " That would be a really damn pathetic answer and I swore not to follow this path.
I guess : "
tomorrow, the next month, the next year will always be better" keke
Our calling..
It was during 1 fine day after school when I saw Xiao Jian together with his schoolmates then it dawned upon me that the 4 elders of TDS platoon 1 has not met up for a very long time indeed.
As you see, Renjie called me to ask about Tokie new number, Zhihao asked me whether am I going for the SSC5 gathering dinner and I saw Xiaojian and obviously this is too much a coincidence perhaps! Haha
yesh Xiaojian..this update is dedicated for you because you said my post is getting shorter and the updating rate is getting longer. As such, I did talked to Tokie over msn a few days ago to suggest a meet up during the December holiday and he actually suggest in my next life...WTF!!! Ya..I think he is still as screwed up as last time..
Term break is finally here...Time to catch a breather maybe for a day or two before plunging head on in my revision for 4 tests after the term break!
Make it or break it..
IMF 2006 is certainly a very expensive event.
Imagine a single basement of Suntec City carpark with more than 80 gleaming new BMW 7 Series waiting to fetch the delegates.
The cars is very nice too. There were all sort of different colours available too.
I guess on that day I saw a few millions of dollar in car assets flashing towards me as I walked past them lol.
The happiest moment for me every single day is when I get to sleep at night.
It is the only time when I can take my mind off my school work and studying.
The saddest thing is when I see daylight for it mean it is another day on struggles... Haha
Such irony...
Sometimes it does get a little pity when you saw someone whom you have not saw for a long time but you have to act a a complete stranger and act blur fuck to each other.
Perhaps that's life.
Mistakes made are most often irreversible.
But of course with time, you learn to live with it and avoid making another mistake
That's what we can..Improvement.
Yesterday I got posted to Conrad hotel to set up the booth for the IMF event. Had to worked till 2am because of limited manpower. Nevertheless, during our stay at Conrad, we had the opportunity to listen to the pianist playing Walt Disney classic on his yamaha piano and see a couple of pretty tourist walking here and there..For this week and next, steer clear of Suntec City for there are many many many policemen stationed around. For Conrad alone, there are already more than 10 policemen stationed to keep watch of it already.
Lost~
I suddenly realised:
I am an introvert.
I am slowly withdrawing into my shell not because I want but because I am spending all my times on studies. Even though I know it is unhealthly, I am giving myself 1 semester to try to see whether am I cut out to take EEE course. That's the least I can do to prove I put in my very best effort to try.
Strange as it may sound, I tend to keep repeating the same mistakes: I still follow the crowd even though I know I have no interest in engineering during my final year @ Polytechnic.
2 wrong moves doesn't make 1 right. It is not the end of the world, but it also mean a part of my youth is wasted trying to follow the "tried and proven" path.
I know studying is not easy, and for all I know, majority of us are just trying very hard to achieve that piece of degree cert. Even though my common sense told me not to follow the crowd and lead such rat race kinda life", I lacked the guts to execute my thoughts because I do not have clear direction on which path to take.
Never have I feel so lost on which path to take at the crossroad of path at 22 years old.
Wish me luck will you?
