Channel U is now showing the serial drama "My Little Fairy" and I am chasing it now because the plot is still alright and the lead actress is quite pretty or rather cute so whenever she appears she bring a smile to my face with her antics, wild and unreasonable behavior. I think I actually got a fetish for rough lady with delicate emotions..just like the lead actress in My Sassy Girl.
So talking about bringing a smile, it also reminds me of the time when I was still serving NS. As you see, there is this lady captain who do resembled a little bit like Xiao Qi..perhaps when she was younger then but now she is married with kids. But my buddy got a crush on her and I myself also personally agreed she is blessed with the ancient beauty look so to say she will not look out of place if she dressed up as "Xiao Long Nu" Theref0re whenever she drive into the camp every morning to report for work, buddy will always keep a lookout and it will make his day if she stop at the spot he is standing to check her pass. Life was simpler back then and you don't really need alot of effort or money to make yourself happy. But of course, human seeks and strive to upgrade all the time so that why he is now at SIM. He told me he got sianz seeing pretty babe everyday and that is when I gone bonkers because I am seeing guys all the time.Damn. At this rate how to know more girls and fix up more potential dates!
Nowadays days are spent wondering what's next..should I continue with this course for the next 2.5 years or break away into the unknown. I feel a certain attachment to the school. It was felt the most during a weekend when I was in school revising for exam. It was late. The entire S4 was so quiet. The white building of S2 glowers against the soft orangish headlamps as the leaves of the big tree rustled against the chilly night because it rain earlier on. I got emotional and wondered if I have a chance to witness the same scene next semester. Anyway to solve this dilemna, I am gonna seek help and advices from experts and come to a right decision soon hopefully.
Last but not least, anyone who have the "My Little Fairy" VCD to lend me?
-1 month of intense studying, -no day, no nite -no weekdays, no weekends, no holiday, no nothing..
"Man down!"
Believe it anot? Very often people will scoff at or doubt the amount of pure effort and hardwork we put in for this exam. They might ask how is it possible or whether we've gone bonkers trying to achieve 2nd upper/lower degree. But put it simply, we study so hard all for a simple reason and that is just to pass the damn paper.
And that's why it is so tough being a engineering student with any form of active lifestyle if you are not intelligent enough. You just have to simply get thru it by pure effort and hardwork.
And thanks god today is the last paper. The struggles are over for now. It's time for a recharge and enjoy ourselves for all the lost time and weekends spent burying at the S4 Business Reading room from morning till night studying as well as sneaking a peak at pretty babes from NBS.
"Hall Cat"
The entire floor actually took care of this cat feeding it food and water. We did our part by
putting the blue towel beside our main door and the cat claimed it as it sleeping area. But it is actually not a very good spot because we keep disturbing the cat sleep with our constant movement in and out of the door late in the night.
After today entry, I have left only the last paper which will be held on this coming Mon, and as you know monday is always associated with the blues so therefore this paper is also a super duper killer paper.
Out of the supposely 6 paper I am supposed to take, I think I did real bad for 1, didn't go and take 1 and (bloody hell they told me it is the easiest among the past few semester), did alright for the other 3..should be able to pass if nothing goes wrong..finger crossed. Therefore on Monday, either by hook or by crook, I must pass this paper hopefully! ROARS!
Can't wait for monday to be over soon to get a breadth of freedom!
And so after an entire week of mugging starting from last friday to this friday, I have manage to clear 2 papers...yes that's right. Clear but don't know can pass. The first paper was a killer because whatever we practise using the 10 year series didn't came out and instead well I don't know how to describe because the format changed this year. It might also be due to the reason that it was my first paper and I got a stage fright..my mind went blank and all I remembered was to complete the paper and get the fuck out of the exam hall. Thinking back, it was such a pity because due to my negligence I forgot to add 1 important alphabet inside the formulae and I couldn't complete the last qns...WTF!!!
So today while I was having the math paper, I had a mental block again but luckily it occurred during the bus ride to school and I told myself to remain clam because I have seen the situation before and this time I got prepared. I ditched my ink based pen in exchange for a ball point 1 because they are less messy and I took my time to complete the qns. Never mind if I couldn't finish the paper but I didn't rush and took the paper rather calmly and sad to say, good to know, I think I did alrite for today paper.
AE is next on monday and I think I gonna give that a miss because I didnt study for the paper at all. So while all the people in the world who is studying EEE Yr 2 is preparing for AE this weekend, I guess I be preparing for physics, data and signals instead. Another 10 days of mugging and everything will be thru. But thru to a what extent? Haha
btw, today while waiting to enter the exam hall, I chanced upon a poster that describe the sympthom of depression. It says if you have more than 5 of the stated behaviors then chances are you are likely to be suffering from the illness. I looked and screened thru and amigo I did have more than 5 of the sympthoms..but luckily that was 2 months ago and count my lucky star I managed to clear my thoughts and think it thru b4 sinking deeper.
Who would have understand that EEE is such a scary place lol..
If you have been catching the korean drama "Princess Hour" you might have heard from the princethat his closest friend is a bear whose name is called Alfred..
I also got...except my bear is not as nice or elegant as his and my bear is just simply called "Bear".
Bear has been with me since I was a kid..maybe 3 or 4 years old? If you look at him at first sight he does look quite fierce because he have no mouth so it look as though he is starring at you. When I was small, my sis and I often fought over Bear. I don't really understand why because she have her own soft toys to play with and Bear was mine and I want him alone to me..Haha. Talk about sibling love. But anyway, Bear is now a young adult, 20+ years old, still in pretty good condition and Im lucky to have him around with me because a piece of my childhood will be retain along with his existance .Nowadays you can't really keep something from the past at all when you are constantly striving forward or else you will be eliminated as what the gov constantly stress to us. I think I'm gonna go back to my sec school to take some photographs before they demolish it next year..
Today is the last day of lecture in NTU. I didn't really give it much thought till des kept asking whether we should take photographs because it might be the last time I'll be stepping inside LT 26 for lectures.
I think I will miss the the frantic moments of us writing furiously on our notes trying to keep pace with the lecturers...Signals by Dr Henry, the frequent scratching of heads and "Lost in WyWy wonderspace" while listening to Analgoue E, the comical lectures conducted for Data and well as the long and deafening suffering on our ears during Circuit Analysis.
I think I will always remember those very good lecturers who really do care about teaching...as seen from this week when the whole lecture theatre will erupt into applause as a sign of appreciation when the lecturer summarize their materials and wish us good luck for our exam. I think this is what the lecturer have been waiting for after the end of every semester. To know he have given his best to transfer the knowledge to young wannabes like us and to be acknowledge for it. I am honoured and thankful of the opportunity to be be a student of Prof Goel..you may not know him but mentioned "NTU Youtube" and it might ring a bell? yes/no?
so exams is next..Even though I might gain a slight advantage going into this exam stress free because the result doesn't really matter that much..I am still gonna to study and do my part as a personal challenge to determine how much I have absorb during the frantic 3 months...
If you had previously read books written by Mitch Albom such as "tuesday with morris" or 5 people you met in heaven, then perhaps you might be interested in his latest work "for 1 more day".
this is roughly the content of the book:
For One More Day
Albom’s tribute to family and particularly motherhood is his second novel and the first to feature a female protagonist. It explores questions of regret, divorce, and how we would spend one special day with the ghost of someone we loved.
Pauline “Posey” Benetto raises her son bravely as a divorced woman in the 1960’s. The boy, Charley, never really appreciates her sacrifices, spending much of his life chasing the elusive love of his father, who left when Charley was 11. The book begins on the night when Charley, now a middle-aged alcoholic whose family and work life have disintegrated, decides to take his own life. He makes a midnight ride to his small hometown, staggers into his old house, which he believes to be abandoned, only to make a startling discovery: his mother, who died eight years earlier, is still living there, as if she never left.
The two of them then embark on the “one more day” that so many wish they had with a lost loved one – a day to ask question, seek forgiveness, and reexamine the life you thought you had. The book was chosen from hundreds of candidates to be the first ever featured by Starbucks in its stores nationwide.
I have not read it yet so I do not know whether the story is really fantastic or if it is just overhype. But I do intend to buy the paperback version of the book when exam is over because the hardcover cost a cool $30!
I like books written by Mitch Albom because they always managed to strip you layer by layer till you are able to feel the essences of the story. I often get goosebump even while re-reading 5 persons you met in heaven because they touched people so easily with its simple yet words of wisdom. So if you are those who seldom read, try it!
I don't know since when but I absolutely detest weekend because most of the time spent will be on books, books and more books! and before you know it it's gone and weekdays is back again.
And it was today after spending the afternoon studying from 12-3pm that I had enough because no matter how hard I tried my mind couldn't absorb anything about the stuffs that is lying in front of my desk and I gave up. Instead, I was ahead and accompany my parents to visit my grandfather. I don't know since when but I'm damn pretty sure it has been a long time since I step out of CCK boundary on a Sunday and you get what I mean..after cooping yourself inside the house for so long the air outside is defintely fresher and cooler due to the rain earlier on.
After the visit, I had my dinner at the Bukit Timah hawker centre somewhere near the shell station and I was happy because there are so many delicious stuffs seldom available in CCK or school such as chicken/pork satay, sugar syrup soyabean drink not the YEOs kind, porridge rojak. It does remind me of the time when we will gather on the weekend for a supper outing and sit down, chit chat or watch a simple movie but ever since the school starts, such activities have cease to exist because as I said earlier weekend is spent on revising school work or else you can forget about catching up at all.
Nevertheless, it's 10 more days to exam or 22 more days to end of exam before life can resume back to normal again for 1 month and I'm looking forward to it..I really do because I have long forgotton about the feeling of being free, being unshackled and living my live not according to the clock but to what I want to do.
sometimes it is not because that I am not and can never be the top few in University and that's why I decided not to continue...
of course, Engineering is never a smooth sailing courses to start with. It is difficult and more often or not depend on a certain level of intelligence regardless of the amount of effort being put in.
I do not know whether it is correct/incorrect to say that but I really do not wish to spend the prime of my youth mugging and striving for something which firstly- I have no interest in and secondly- required tons and tons of efforts without even seeing any marginal rewards.
most often or not I am quite affected by remarks commenting I 半途而费 which is not exactly false in the first place but honestly I have a choice of giving up now instead without subjecting myself to the stress and anxiety of the incoming exams. Still I choose to sit for the exam even though I know it is unlikely to make any difference to my decision because I still believe in closing the chapter.
And of course it sadden me to leave behind frens ( beside my buddies ) made along the way in NTU and more often their response was to urge me to stay on when I announced my decision. Again I have nobody to blame but myself for not thinking carefully about my choice made 2 years ago.
I do hope I can come back again studying courses of my choices and joining back my familiar grps of frens but chances are very slim.
my future may seems as dark and dull like a charcoal but I will put in effort to at least make it shine instead of becoming ashes.
serious stuff aside, I met up with tok, xj, zh and gary again because it is XJ 21st bdae. the birthday celebration was not bad, manage to meet up again with tok after his ORD, manage to see a babe who is really captivating and most importantly we manage to get together to take a photos with my civilian status.
happy 21st birthday xj. wishing you happiness and success in life and love as well.
Loser United is looking for an additional member to replace the current outgoing.
He and it must be a HE not she shall have to fufill the following requirement:
-must be single
-no girlfriend
-not rich
-struggling with his studies
-talk only seldom action
l-ame and able to take jokes
So if you fit the above criteria send us a message and we will consider your application.
Haha... Actually members of Loser United are actually a good bunch of Singapore citizen who never get called up by the police and who really want to have fun but often "kena" restricted here and there for thousands of whatever reasons.
as exam period draws closer, you can see that the word mugging keep repeatly appear on MSN.
The stress factor will increase..a tad similar to the PSI index so when Desmond told me he is starting to have trouble sleeping peacefully in the night, I immediately knew our happy go lucky guy is starting to panic which is obviously very normal for any other students when exam is near.
If I have learnt a lesson these few days, 1 of it would be "Youth is Capital" If you have the interest or dream, plan out something and go ahead and achieve it while you are young. Talking can only take you this far and help you build more sandcastles in the air. Pure hardwork and efforts with a little bit of luck element is require to make it happen.
"Xiao Qi"
