I always believed my family is a little dsyfunctional and I still do.
For all the things my mother do and I'm grateful for it, I still cannot tolerate her posionous mouth which always spew out rubbish and set to disrupt the harmony within the family. And I always don't understand she just can't think before she speaks...always stating she is a direct person and she feel uncomfortable keeping it in her chest without regard for the feeling of the person she is refering to. And I've been living with this for a decade and more so I'm pretty surprised I did not turn into a bad tempered and violence-prone monster Haha. I mean I do have a temper but not that exactly that bad la...
But it also mould the rebellious streak in me..mine sister is worse thou. During my teenage year, I will always try do the exact opposite of what my mother instructs me to do. My teenage years were pretty topsy turvey, with all the arguments and whatsoever but then again my sister got it worse. So who's saying boys are the more rebellious one? As I grow up and have a mind of my own, I've known I don't like to go along with the flow that much. I think it is alright to be a little different..as long as you don't purposely draw attention to yourself. So when majority of the secondary school classmates went to JC, I opted for poly even though I have a choice because I don't want to spend 2 years struggling badly thru countless assignments and stuffs. I've no regrets going to poly. I'm glad I met a great bunch of friends and excel in my work even though I'm not pretty interested in it. Seriously speaking, much of it is due to efforts put in and of coz, MATHS. It's quite ironic because Maths is always my worse subject in primary and secondary levels but I'm getting good grade for it in poly or even right now in University. I guess perhaps the maths then were easy then or rather it's foundation maths in Uni that we are talking about so the level is not that hard but it's good to be humble and modest Haha.
Anyway, it seems it is all coming back to full circle to the current circumstances because I have already apply to switch course to business in NTU. I hope it is successful and in turn provide me another environment to strive in. Of course, there is no straight 100% success. In fact, it is a 50-50 gamble and if I did manage to get in, I have to make double hard effort to turn the odds better for myself indeed.
Life is a gamble isn't it? And what's best to do it when you are still young so when you look back you know at least you have try. Sometimes I'm so pissed off with myself for wasting my time when I know I can actually do a little bit more..wallowing in self pity, delaying decisions to the next day, the next month, the next year and before you know it, the opportunity is gone and then it starts all over again lamenting this and that. Be more decisive and if you try at least you have 50% chances of success. If you don't, a big fat 0% or rather 100% failure rate is starring at you right in your face spitting spitefully. And I am referring to myself for skipping the AE exam and getting a straight F for not trying and hence getting 2 F in return.Perhaps it is retribution? Hence, a very valuable lesson learn here. No matter what, try to achieve and excel in your dreams and prove to the whole world what you are capable of.
Oh my gosh, I guessed I have written alot today. Perhaps I can be a motivational speaker too. That's all folks. Think about it for all those who are always so indecisive..you know I mean who haha hint (Hulky get fainty when someone pull his bag from behind) and best pray you make the wise decision for yourself then.
TIA = This Is Africa
where people fought civil wars, gained leadership, make as much money and goes into exile.
Nominated for Oscars. A thought-provoking film. Who will have thought having valuable resources in this Africa continent will be the last thing you would want to have?
Damn, flunked 2 out of 6 subjects. Much as I like to console myself that this bear nothing if I manage to switch successfully and I have mentally been prepared for it ,I am still the harshest critics to myself and honestly I'm bitterly disappointed to fail Circuit. All I need for is an environment for me to strive but sadly I just cannot survive in EEE.
A good movie is one which do not disappoint no matter how many times you watched it over and over again...just like the movie below:
I guessed I watched this movie at least 3 times but it still managed to give out different amid feel good feeling that there are indeed many many different type of love in this world. Sometimes you receive it, while at times you have to give without expecting anything in return. Of course, it is a fantastic feeling to be love..especially during the festive season.
Therefore Merry Christmas and A Happy new year ahead while I am still waiting for someone special to say this to:
Hahaha..next year perhaps...I do hope it'll be better than this year. 2006 is something of a little screw up for me
Some actress/actors just seem to be prettier/handsome dressing up in olden wear. eg: Xiang Xue Hai above as what she is called in the show: "My Little Fairy". But in reality, her dressing is very conservative, almost like auntie-type so of course her appeal to the younger generation is not that appealing anymore. Sianz...
ISG result for
Frisbee:
-lost to NBS
-win MAE
-lost to
SBSand it's such a pity because
SBS isn't really a very
strong team but unfortunately because of the damn stupid rain, most of the people
didn't turn up and we have to fight the battle with only 7 people. Luckily we broke the egg and got 1 point but seriously though we could have win it and shut the fuck up of their arrogant
captain who keep
kao-
pek-
ing throughout the match so much so I decided to repeat whatever instructions he shouted to his team and make the cute lady who was guarding me giggled and allow me to make space to throw my
Frisbee...
hahaISG result for touch
rugby-won MAE
-won SCI
tomorrow semi-final. It was my first time playing touch
rugby and the conditions were not exactly favourable. Remind me of my
Sispec days because of the rain, the cold wind, the super muddy field but
lan lan bo bian when you see other girls diving to the line for a try without any
apprehension you just know you have to do the same.
In all, it showed me another side of what varsity life is all about. All the teamwork, sportmanship , cheering, new friends made etc...I have been living in my own little world of EEE during the 4 months of school and today was really an eye-opener. Even though it was only Desmond and me, I guessed what we did today was something of exceptional to what we always do.
I'm just glad that we went to the games today.
picture for malaysia trip is available @ http://picasaweb.google.com/zire84
Watched this show this morning. It's really a nice show about a dsyfunctional family trying to get their daughter to participate in the final of " Little Miss Sunshine" contest in California. Due to family finance, they have to drive cross state instead of taking the plane. Along the journey, grandpa died because of drug overdose, father failed in his business venture, brother discovered he has color blindness and goes his dream of being a fighter pilot. But the family got closer together at the end of the show because..
Watch it to find out yourself.
p/s: away to malaysia for 3 days. Be back on Sunday.
As seen from the mrt billboard advertisment:
"Apply for Citibank Smrt Visa Platinum card and enjoy 5% rebate for taking mrt ride"
Now you tell me when in the hell a person will take a mrt when he is rich enough to own a PLATINUM CARD!!!! not gold you know. It is PLATINUM.
unless you are telling me the person is so wise not to own a car to avoid sinking his money in a sure loss investment or he is just too environmentally friendly to own a car.
Last night, we attempt to visit the new club called DragonFly at St James Powerhouse and get stopped because the age limit was 23. It made us feel like we were those 17 years old kid who attempt to get into Zouk but can't because the age limit is 18.
All is such, I still feel clubbing is bad for health. 1 year go 2 times is enough to shorten your lifespan by 2 years.
Everyone have their own strength and weakness.
I think my strength is organising, gathering, sorting out information and keeping to the target set out for whatever stuff I set out intially to do. But what's my strength is also my weakness because I know people with my type of personality or working method will always be consigned to being a worker and not a boss because I don't like to take unforseenable risks.
I think I am also a bit more mature than in the past. I know where is my limits and not to exceed them. I learn to explore the different options and roughly gauge the consequences/aftereffect for where options I decided to take. On the other hand, I tend to take myself too seriously so I seldom make new friends. I'm pretty much comfortable with myself and the people I already know. I don't network much and I will also not make any attempt to understand people I have not interest in.
My weakness is my stubborness to stick to my point of view too often. A little too headstrong, I often expect things concerning about myself to proceed exactly the way I want. My pride is also my downfall. Too much pride hinders me from finding the fastest solution to solve immediate problems. I like to depend on myself and it is only at the last resort that I seek help. In turn, precious time and effort is waste.
I still got a lot of weakness left to mention but I guess it will take me till dawn to describe them all..What about you? Do you ever thought about what is your strength and weakness? tell me when you have time do You?
So many bouncers for 1 fair lady
The picture was taken amid the backdrop of a pink christmas tree right outside the Cathay. WTF are they thinking...Pink christmas tree?
Which christmas tree do you prefer then? The traditional one at Ngee Ann with the towering green fig tree, the white snowflakes theme right outside Paragon or the pink one at The Cathay? I'm a sucker for tradition so I choose the Ngee Ann. The reason being; there is so much novelty presented to us nowadaysbut it in turn make the traditional stuffs even more outstanding. Talk about reverse pyschology.
Yesterday night was alright. Sometimes, it is always the same orginal group that has witnessed your up and down, the funny, the crazy and the digusting you that make the best company.
my adizero is gone..sianz
must find a way to reclaim back the money.
I think taking the IPPT to earn that $200 might do the trick.
"Once your self-confidence and conscious are lost, you yourself will be gone too...
For whether you suceed or fail, don't let your conscious down
As for the rest, leave it to Destiny."
A meaningful phrase indeed for I can testifed myself for the first statement. At the point of my lowest confidence after I left NS, I remembered myself as a zombie, fearing daylight everyday, constantly depressed, constantly tired and struggling to live day by day.
Suddenly...to be able to stop and take a break doesn't seem so important anymore because I have taken a very long break ever since the exam end last Monday. To be able to experience a new environment seems a little uncertain because there is no guarantee I'll be able to adapt to it as well.
Suddenly, my world & future is uncertain because I don't not being in control of my future. Risks are all around but I don't know how much I have to take to move to another level to improve myself and make me a better person. Stress, stress stress.I need a guiding light!
I like:
the feeling of dying when you are gasping for breath
the little saltish droplets of sweat that is flowing out of the skin
the point of exhaustion when it's a battle of mind over body
the feel good factor when you complete what you are suppose to achieve
in all..I just like to run to my heart content
please grant me a pair of Adizero or Asics for this christmas please? Haha
p/s: Death note is really good stuff because the plot is pretty brilliant. If you are not as smart as the writer of the series, watch it because it might make you cleverer!
I've been to Ochard these 2 days. The 1st day was to go to Border to raid "For 1 more day" by Mitch Albom. The other trip was to catch a movie in the night at cine and I get to appreciate the "festive mood" amid inside the car witnessing the huge christmas tree outside Paragon. I think the white tree of Paragon look nicer than that of Ngee Ann though. And if I did not remember wrongly centrepoint got these huge lettering outside the billboard of its building. The whole building got extended and gods know when because I haven been to orchard for 4 months but that is not important.
"For 1 more day" is a little disappointing because the storyline resembled a little bit of "5 people you met in heaven" It just doesn't bring out the same emotion when I read it. And I just don't understand the ending at all. Still, the book aims to advocate the great power of a mother unselfish love for her son. Just don;t expect too much from the book and you'll be fine.
Borders is really a great place to hang. There are so many books to read to your heart content as well as beautiful scenery with brains moving around. Of course they must have brains or else what the hell are they in borders for? Hahaha
